hoping and figuring stuff out
i'n trying to figure out a way that i can have a baby NOW. how can we make it work. it would be silly to try cause jason is going to go to school, and i will need to work. maybe once we find out how much of his school will be funded. sometimes one gets more than just tuition. if we can manage with just his grant, then maybe i can work for one more year and save all my money. then have a baby and then i'll get mat leave pay as well. i doubt we will get enough to live on though.
i'm so frustrated.
my hopes and dreams:
i don't want to work while the baby is home. thats 3-4 years (we'll see about half day daycare or something when s/he is 3) and in that time i want to be taking courses in small business management and baking. and get my business running. that won't happen until jason has a good job and baby is in school full time. and i want to have 2...so at this point, it looks like my bakery isn't going to be in business for another 10 or so years. i keep thinking of scraping that idea...but i don't know what else to do. i really don't. it's that, or go to school full time for a whole long time. maybe i'd get to go when my kids are in college!
i guess our 5 year plan still stands. i HOPE HOPE HOPE (and pray) that jason gets into practical nursing (he's applying SOON) he is also applying for pre-health, and if he passes that, he gets in to prac nursing. if he gets straight into prac nursing, he will be done in 2 years, and then he has to work for some time, then he can take one year of registered nursing. i figure, he will need to work for at least a year for him to qualify. i should go read the fine print...jasons not so good at that.
if he doesn't get in, but does get into pre health, thats 3 years of school.
anyway, my point is, that baby making can start happening in either:
september-ish of 2009-baby born some time after june 2010 (i'll be 30) - if he gets into prac n. and he agrees to be in school for the RN program while we have a 1/2/3 yearold
september-ish 2010 - baby juneish 2011 (31) - he doesn't get into prac. n, he needs to take pre h. and he doesn't mind having a 1/2/3 y.o. while in last year doing RN.
some point after that - but really, if it hasn't happened by the time i'm 32 (after august 2011) i'm not sure if i should. i'm sure i will. i'm just a little scared. and 4 years is a long time to wait.
i'm so frustrated.
my hopes and dreams:
i don't want to work while the baby is home. thats 3-4 years (we'll see about half day daycare or something when s/he is 3) and in that time i want to be taking courses in small business management and baking. and get my business running. that won't happen until jason has a good job and baby is in school full time. and i want to have 2...so at this point, it looks like my bakery isn't going to be in business for another 10 or so years. i keep thinking of scraping that idea...but i don't know what else to do. i really don't. it's that, or go to school full time for a whole long time. maybe i'd get to go when my kids are in college!
i guess our 5 year plan still stands. i HOPE HOPE HOPE (and pray) that jason gets into practical nursing (he's applying SOON) he is also applying for pre-health, and if he passes that, he gets in to prac nursing. if he gets straight into prac nursing, he will be done in 2 years, and then he has to work for some time, then he can take one year of registered nursing. i figure, he will need to work for at least a year for him to qualify. i should go read the fine print...jasons not so good at that.
if he doesn't get in, but does get into pre health, thats 3 years of school.
anyway, my point is, that baby making can start happening in either:
september-ish of 2009-baby born some time after june 2010 (i'll be 30) - if he gets into prac n. and he agrees to be in school for the RN program while we have a 1/2/3 yearold
september-ish 2010 - baby juneish 2011 (31) - he doesn't get into prac. n, he needs to take pre h. and he doesn't mind having a 1/2/3 y.o. while in last year doing RN.
some point after that - but really, if it hasn't happened by the time i'm 32 (after august 2011) i'm not sure if i should. i'm sure i will. i'm just a little scared. and 4 years is a long time to wait.
posted by becca at 8:18 AM
1 Comments:
Why would you hesitate after you're 32? I'm curious 'cause I'm turning 32 in just over a month and have no qualms whatsoever about having my children in five years or even when I'm 40, like when Mum had my brother Tyler.
Sorry there aren't any quick and easy answers, Girlie... we should really really really try and get together for tea or something soon! *hug*
Tanya
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