i'm feeling let down
i try. i may not try hard. but i do try. i don't try hard because i don't want to be a pest, and i figure others should try too.
there are a few people in my life who seem to give a shit when i see them, but unless a third party invites us to an event and we are both there, we don't see eachother. thats all fine and good. it happens. not everyone you get along with is supposed to be your best friend. or even regular freind. but then you get invited to there weddings. and it confuses the fuck outta me. cause i havn't invited some of them to mine cause jason hasn't even met them and i figured, unless you are out of the country or something jason should have met friends who are close enough to invite to a wedding. cause to me, especially planning my own, thats what weddings are about. loved ones.
yes, i'm talking about niki and todd.
i'm rambling now. i'm feeling frusterated. and honoured that i'd be invited to there weddings. and i hope they understand that my wedding is small and they havn't even met jason. i don't even know if they read this.
*rasperry*
i do enjoy both todd and nikis company very very much. i'm not feeling angry. i'm not pissed. i'm just sad.
i have always wondered if other people think about me as much as i think about them.
there are a few people in my life who seem to give a shit when i see them, but unless a third party invites us to an event and we are both there, we don't see eachother. thats all fine and good. it happens. not everyone you get along with is supposed to be your best friend. or even regular freind. but then you get invited to there weddings. and it confuses the fuck outta me. cause i havn't invited some of them to mine cause jason hasn't even met them and i figured, unless you are out of the country or something jason should have met friends who are close enough to invite to a wedding. cause to me, especially planning my own, thats what weddings are about. loved ones.
yes, i'm talking about niki and todd.
i'm rambling now. i'm feeling frusterated. and honoured that i'd be invited to there weddings. and i hope they understand that my wedding is small and they havn't even met jason. i don't even know if they read this.
*rasperry*
i do enjoy both todd and nikis company very very much. i'm not feeling angry. i'm not pissed. i'm just sad.
i have always wondered if other people think about me as much as i think about them.
posted by becca at 4:46 PM
1 Comments:
i've really started to pare down my guest list. we're aiming for 80 people and i just cut a few folks off. it's weird how it really makes you look at friends and acquaintences and their dates etc etc and how it all gets evaluated. i think we all have our own motives and rationales for our decisions, and with a small wedding i really want to focus on the people who are active in my life right now. if i got married 5 years ago or 5 years in the future, the list would be totally different. i think it's just one of those time capsule type things. i don't know. i struggle with it a lot too. i'm not the type to care about "keeping up appearances" or doing the proper, perfect Miss Manners thing. i don't want to pointedly hurt feelings, but decisions have to be made and it's not a 400 person free for all, so some people will be left out. it's just how it goes.
-rain
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