stress.
jason is going on a major stress bender.
it's making me bonkers.
it's, infact...
making me STRESSED!
money (or i should say lack of) has never stressed me. maybe it's cause i grew up very poor, and my mom still managed to feed and clothe us well. i have wants. like new jeans that fit properly...but i can make due. and a new hair cut...maybe i should hire erika!
he keeps calling himself a loser. who makes stupid mistakes. his mind is back in february when he left nefara cause they where screwing him around. and now he can't support me.
party of me wants to blame him. he could stop smoking. both pot and cigarettes. that would save us, what? $50/month. $50 that could go towards food.
instead of a doctor he is going to go to nuring school because as soon as his metis status goes through, he can get a bursary. in about 5 years he will be a nurse. for those last 4 years (i'm not expecting him to start for another year...) i will have to support us. that means i need a well paying job. that means i can't open my cafe untill he is done and is supporting us. that means i'm pushing having kids back 10 years. 36 is too old. in 10 years dylan will be 17, and jason 42. i don't want to wait 10 years. i don't want to be 46 when my baby is 10!
we want a house. i think we should get a condo by next year so we are not throwing away money. jason thinks we should live with his mom, in a house we all buy, after his dad passes away.
on top of all this, we have our debts. jason has $60,000 worth! i have $6000. before we can do ANYTHING we need to get rid of them.
if i keep up my 3 jobs i make about $1300/month (! it's the most i have EVER made) and right now, jason is making a lot less. he is going to have to go bankrupt. i think he should go bankrupt before we get married, cause can't his debts be transfered onto me??
i am very frustereated. what else can i do? i'm not qualified, or interested in doing anything else.
maybe i should go work in a factory.
it's making me bonkers.
it's, infact...
making me STRESSED!
money (or i should say lack of) has never stressed me. maybe it's cause i grew up very poor, and my mom still managed to feed and clothe us well. i have wants. like new jeans that fit properly...but i can make due. and a new hair cut...maybe i should hire erika!
he keeps calling himself a loser. who makes stupid mistakes. his mind is back in february when he left nefara cause they where screwing him around. and now he can't support me.
party of me wants to blame him. he could stop smoking. both pot and cigarettes. that would save us, what? $50/month. $50 that could go towards food.
instead of a doctor he is going to go to nuring school because as soon as his metis status goes through, he can get a bursary. in about 5 years he will be a nurse. for those last 4 years (i'm not expecting him to start for another year...) i will have to support us. that means i need a well paying job. that means i can't open my cafe untill he is done and is supporting us. that means i'm pushing having kids back 10 years. 36 is too old. in 10 years dylan will be 17, and jason 42. i don't want to wait 10 years. i don't want to be 46 when my baby is 10!
we want a house. i think we should get a condo by next year so we are not throwing away money. jason thinks we should live with his mom, in a house we all buy, after his dad passes away.
on top of all this, we have our debts. jason has $60,000 worth! i have $6000. before we can do ANYTHING we need to get rid of them.
if i keep up my 3 jobs i make about $1300/month (! it's the most i have EVER made) and right now, jason is making a lot less. he is going to have to go bankrupt. i think he should go bankrupt before we get married, cause can't his debts be transfered onto me??
i am very frustereated. what else can i do? i'm not qualified, or interested in doing anything else.
maybe i should go work in a factory.
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