grrr

went to the "interveiw". got schedualed for a real interveiw for thursday morning. i better get this job. it's going to cost me $15 just for the interveiws! (ttc x 3)


in other news, i'm going out for dinner with my dad. i am now past my anger and on to *very long pause cause i'm not sure what the next step is*. i don't think i can "forgive". he told his parents, and his wife, and appologised to me. that makes me feel better. but i don't think i can forgive. but i want a dad. and he's the one i got. i don't want it to run my life anymore. so maybe thats the next step. to move on. not "get over it" but move on. maybe it is that simple. or maybe you just need to get there before it becomes simple.