wedding bells

i think i have to start my budget for the wedding soon. i need to get the "final" guest list from jason. there are so many people i want to invite, but am not close to right now, but would like to be close to more/again. like todd and sally. and niki and mike. and anne weafer! i've always dug anne. a lot of my newer friends...the goth people are too...eeeerm...crazy. maybe unstable is a good word. too whatever for me to have in my life forever. my older friends are, or at least seem, more stable. maybe more real. or normal. i want to teach my children tollerence. my "lj freinds" are good people. and i'd like to have some of them as "real friends". maybe it's time to stop my lj before anyone gets hurt. good plan stan.


eeeerm...

back to wedding plans. it's hard!
*time passes*
i've got my list now. i have 84. i guesstimated jasons at 65. that is exactly what we planned on inviting (well...150). we are hoping only 100-120 acctually come. we have a bunch of people out of town...a lot of jasons family isn't close to him...(sad but true fact of birth family when you meet them after 12 years)

i have a million urls in my favorites, in my wedding links folder. and 3 "note book" pages on the go.

not to mention nerves! i'm feeling VERY overwhelmed with feelings of "OMG! i have to be responsible now!". scary. but i have a wonderful partner who is good at talking to me and calming me down

! movie time!